If you love me then why won't you hold me

I always tend to be the other woman.

I can sum up this year in two words, fucking crazy.
i didnt expect anything and so much has happened, a lot of big steps and huge changes, that have led me to who I am as of today.

I moved to New york, adopted a new do and look. came home a different person, i've learned to embrace and enjoy solitude, i've learned to manage living alone, doing things alone in a new city, I've had many introductions and just as many goodbyes.
anyways I can go on and on about 2009. I could probably make a fucking book about october alone but the point is how i am and who I am now.

I am greatful to my friends now and those that I have recently departed with, I have learned from all.

I feel like i've aged 6 years with all the shit i've been through this year but I am ready to face another year of unexpected surprises, unexpected challenges, and unexpected acomplishments.

2009 you've been fucking crazy and I cant wait till you finally end.







And everything and everyone around me is changing
Now that I've been the other woman