pondering.

should I complicate my life once more?
why does this happen, these complications.

once i get involved with people or start to get into a "group" so to say, things begin to get ...... complicated.
I learn, do, say things that make things just so.

i manipulate and control things, but do I really?
and why do people make it so easy?
why do people trust me?
do I have a trusting smile?

I truly believe it's my nature, my entertainment as a loner, pass from group to group fuck things up a bit then be forgotten.

so should I or shouldn't I?


things may turn out badly like they always do.
hmmm, but isn't that the point.