FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK.
I need to go to new york, now!

so I can.

+I can dress better.
+have cool friends
+go to cool parties
+ride my bike around the city
+see snow
+live in my own studio/apartment.
or
+live in someone else's apartment.

now these things might now happen, I might actually just

+stay a loner [i don't doubt it]
+not get invited to any parties
+live in a crappy small place
+be very poor
but I will still!
+dress better
+see snow
and
+ride my bike
or
walk.

[which isn't all that bad.]



Buttttt before any of that shite can happen.
I need to keep doing productive things.
and
NOT
MUDAFUGGNSLACK.

+dentist [in progress]
+college applications [in progress a.i call the schools thurs.]
+search for apartments via cragslist
+email several NYC someones and talk to people. [this'll be hard.]
+start painting
+finish designs
+take photographs
+draw [in progress]
+begin video art ideas & do
+vegan/raw food

now i am slowly getting my shite together, but this does take some time.

the easiest thing to do is the latter of the list, because Fuck well everyone has to eat.


my shite is coming together FINALLY!!!