Where is my mind?

My family always seems worried about me.

ever since I was younger they always thought that I was weird.

What I would make.

What I would do.

What I would like.

I never thought any of that stuff as weird.

I still don't understand why they are so concerned.

They only see the normal things anyway.

I think if people knew what I was thinking most of the time and most of the things I like, and even do. 

I think they would question who they think I am.

But I am still ME.

hmmm I just think that if my family thinks some of regular interest are weird and the things they know I do as weird.

They wont even really understand the rest of me.

I don't think i'll find someone who would understand me.

I don't even think I'll find someone who will accept all of me.

I doubt I will even revel that much anyway.

forget that I wont be soo melodramatic.

I might find someone. 

BUt I doubt they will take what I say seriously.

yea.

the only time I can revel a bit of myself without feeling vulnerable is when I am sarcastic.

even when I am not, people think I am joking, when I am not really.

But then people think i have a sense of humor.

I found this one guy on youtube/stickam that I think reminds me of me a bit.

or what I really want to say.

I bet people just think he is babbling idiot. or high off of something.

I know I am not.

so does that make ME a babbling idiot.

This is why I enjoy my own company, cause even though I think I am crazy sometimes.

I still accept what I am .

What I like .

and What I do. 

I don't need anyone to understand me anyway.

When I have myself. 

:D